yayness!!
this is my 100th post!!
=D
recently i have been having the
'paul twohill'
look
cuz of my fan
and my com
==''
th positioning
makes my hair 'unique'
=='
got broken again..
and stabbed...
and impaled multiple times...
and im still alive and living...
haha...
he caused me to ache last night..
cried cried cried...
woke up with puffy eyes ...
hid in bed till it became normal again...
which was like..
around 1+ ...
i really dont understand myself now...
i dont want IT at this current time but...
IT just keep on throwing itself at me...
prelims are in trouble now...
such a short time to recover...
and such a deep wound...
death is taking a toll on me...
scissors are tempting me...
my feelings are betraying me...
th windows are calling for me...
even stepping into the kitchen is a death threat...
i might have promised someone tht i wont hurt myself but...
i really dont know if i could hold that promise anymore..
eveything around me could easily kill me...
was stronger the first time round...
now weaker...
unsure of th world now...
unsure who to trust...
wish he wasnt soo petty...
angry at me for and unknown reason too...
hates people being angry at me...
always puts me in a spot...
makes me think im a piece of trash...
always breaks me to know it...
he doesnt understand me...
so why bother to get me...
he doesn't know how fragile i can get...
he doesn't know how i broke myself previously...
HE DOSEN'T KNOW HOW INNOCENT I AM IN THIS SECTOR
he doesn't know that i've fallen so deep for him that im risking everything...
he doesn't know...
he just dosen't know...
he doesn't know the amount of pain he brought me...
he doesn't know i truely and really don't understand and i wasn't acting innocent...
he doesn't know that he had hurt me...
he doesn't know that even though he hurt me i still clutched onto a special something
that reminds me of him...
he doesn't know...
that i cried all night long...
just because of him...
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--xAkira
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Broken Akira...
Dead bibi...

♥ Saturday, August 08, 2009